his walk of life

2008-11-09T22:22:00.003+08:00

unless you're that lag...

I'VE MOVED!

GOSH.

You really are slow if you still read this.

here's the link:
BENISM87

2007-08-02T16:08:00.000+08:00

tomorrow would be my last day at Roxwell

well...
definitely gained alot of experience in the field of MICE...
and it definitely helped improve my resume!

i just realised how many of my friends are serving the nation already...
some in fact are coming out already...

i was at my primary school friend's birthday party..
all the guys...
they are going to ORD already!
i havent even POP!

anyway..
on to the good stuff..

NATIONAL DAY PARADE 2007 @ MARINA BAY!

YEAH!
I'm so looking forward!

in case you didn't know,
i've won tickets through the ballot system!
and yes,
i'm going with my dearest.

it has been...
errr...
too lazy to count...
since PRIMARY 5 that i have watched NDP live!

i am so going to enjoy myself!
yay!

well..
i guess i was really lucky to be able to win the tickets..
the audience seats at marina are lesser than Kallang stadium..
and to be able to be the lucky few to win the tickets..
damn..
i am damn lucky.

anyway..
im so going to enjoy myself before i go in NS..

i promise that i will shave my hair before i going and post my pic here..

bye!

2007-07-20T15:32:00.000+08:00

I HATE ALICE GIAM.

i really hate my colleague.

she totally sucks

fucking bitch

2007-07-19T12:35:00.000+08:00

my new maid is the death of me

yesterday my mom asked my maid to clean up my room because of the dust..
and she left home after that..

so being the good maid she is...
my maid cleared the things on my table floor etc so that she can clean up...

good job done?

yeah. good.

but its what she did after that, that totally pissed me off.

she unpacked things that belonged in bags and repacked them somewhere else!
all the things on my table were all rearrange or kept in paper bags and left it on my table!
worse still, she used my favourite paper bags to keep my things.
i keep all the nice plastic and paper bags in my room...
and she act smart and used them..

argh.

i hate people to touch my things and re-arrange them!

i spent the whole night unpacking and putting things individually back in place..

that stupid maid almost caused me not to be able to go watch NDP lor!
cause she go keep the tickets somewhere among everything in the paper bags.
argh.

totally pissed off..

btw,
im sick since sunday(15/07/07).
fever, sorethroat(more like piercing pain throat), terrible gastric pains...
fever gone..
but the throat pain and gastric pain is still haunting me.

help me.

my future bedroom

2007-06-21T08:50:00.000+08:00

this is only a rough guide...
any comments?

Goodbye Singlehood, Welcome My Love

2007-06-09T23:59:00.001+08:00

Together since: 9.6.07

I Love You Dear!!

2007-05-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

I HATE THIRD PARTIES

I HATE UNFAITHFUL PARTIES (ESP MARRIED ONES)

THEY ARE DISGUSTING CREATURES

thank you

p.s. Lemme clarify that I have always hated this type of people since a long time ago, and not because something like this happened that I know of

both look wrong

2007-05-29T10:19:00.000+08:00

187 Ice Mountain Bottle

pain pain

2007-05-28T16:37:00.000+08:00

i confessed
i admitted

got confused
got depressed

the fact is,
i like a girl
who is not ready for another relationship
because of an "ex-relationship" that she could not let go
(or at least because of it)

i can choose to deny
but i cant escape the fact
felt like a downright rejection

but feelings have grown
that im willing to wait
but yet again,
at the same time confused over this

argh

i is really like her

:'(

2007-05-04T14:48:00.000+08:00

hmm.

fell sick on tuesday.
must be the dust and the durian.

sore throat, cough, fever, muscle ache & headache

jialat right?

took mc on wednesday

feeling much better now
still having sore throat though

now in office working.
nothing much to do.

got my pay at last.
party time.
hahaha.

2007-04-30T13:33:00.000+08:00

got my enlistment at last..

13 September 2007

wtf.

so late.

nvm

gives me more time to settle some stuff

office now renovating like mad.

dusty like hell.

and i am like quite sensitive to dust.

my nose itches.

my head itches.

argh.

so gan kor.

getting my pay!!

>.<

2007-04-26T14:51:00.001+08:00

OH YAH!

I WANT THE SUMSUNG K3 MP3 PLAYER!!!!

I WANT I WANT I WANT!!!!!

BUT I DONT WANT TO PAY FOR IT!!!

THOSE WHO OWE ME A BIRTHDAY PRESENT!!!!!!!!!!

HUR HUR HUR!!!!!

2007-04-26T14:43:00.000+08:00

missed me? anyone?

tell you something stupid about me.

i didnt know that a router does not necessarily need a PC to work.

i havent been online these past few weeks because my notebook's ethernet port is spoilt or something.
so i cant go online.

and i didnt know that a router can work independently.

damn it.

i will be back more frequently online once i renew my contract with Starhub(can get free router)

anyway.
been busy with work.
oh yah.
im working part time at my cousin's company: Roxwell Pte Ltd
we're a MICE company.
Meetings, Incentives, Conventions and Exhibitions.
in short, an events management company.

NS nearing.
most likely to enter in June(most likely cause i havent got my letter)
4 weeks PTP (Physical Training Phase)
BMT and etc.

oh well.
not really worried or anything.
but im praying to go SPF(singapore police force)
hahahaha.

PRAY FOR ME OK!!!

NP BA Prom Night 2007

2007-03-04T02:28:00.000+08:00

let the pictures do the talking. busy now. no time to write too much. just randomly chose some photos. yeah.

2007-02-15T01:13:00.000+08:00

so it goes.
another lousy feb 14/15.

its just a terrible day.

alone(besides the time in school for my exam)
exam
personal problems
being treated selfishly
feeling so unloved

valentine's day: lovers express their love for each other(Wikipedia)

fuck.
sometimes i think the true meaning of this day has been lost over the years.

valentine's day should be a day where TRUE FEELINGS of lovers are shown.
now, i feel it has been misinterpreted.

call me selfish generalised thinking,
but valentine's day has become a "WOMAN-PRIDE-INCREASE-DAY"

why so?
think about it..
MEN always lugi(lose out) on this day...
having to spend alot of moolah to SATISFY his partner
it is also known now that Valentine's day,
is just another day for guys to ask girls out on a date.
now it also can be know as another day where
"girls compete how many guys ask them for a date" day

reflect on this.

I have never experienced or heard of any incidents where the LADY
would buy something or do something special to satisfy the guy.
the most is just verbally saying those regular words.
guys can only swallow their pride and accept it.
neither have i heard or experienced ladies asking guys out on Valentine's.

friggin unfair.

i find that it is worse when ladies actually demand gifts or such from their men
just because it is Valentine's day

i find that totally ridiculous.
i dont know how to explain it.
i just find it crap.

ok. i admit there are some couples where both the man and the lady "benefits" on that day.
i wont ignore that fact.

unless someone can change my viewpoint of this matter...
it would make me think that women are darn selfish.
im sorry for sounding rather crude ladies...
i still love you ladies...
its just that...
i have to fight for my(as well as other guys) right!!

Where is the love?

2007-02-06T23:58:00.000+08:00

try Dark Cut a surgeon game.. 3 levels only.. i scored only 205...

Doc Dentist! ehh... obvious enough... kinda like minesweeper..

Cursor dont let that guy catch ur cursor!

2007-02-05T01:27:00.000+08:00

hey guys.
sorry never update so long.
having a rather rough patch now.

busy studying for my final exam.
so..
pray for me and wish me luck..
greatly appreciated.

had a nightmare of centipedes recently..
searched around online for the meaning...

Dream symbol: Centipedes

To see a centipede in your dream, suggests that you are letting your fears and doubts hinder you from making progress and achieving your goals. You need to stop thinking negative thoughts.

i guess..
the meaning is quite correct..
i have to stop negative thinking.
time to let go..

ciao~

be back on CNY week.

2007-01-17T18:47:00.000+08:00

sorry for not blogging so long..

well...

what a start for the year..

ive fallen sick...

and it was quite sudden...

went school today for marketing revision lecture..
only to find out it was only a 30min lecture...
waste my time going school..
and i was feeling unwell at that time already..
should have stayed home..

i think im running a fever..
cuz my eyes feel hot...

im going to faint now.
bye.

2007-01-11T22:51:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO BE HAPPY!!

this is my greatest wish this year.
and it would be the greatest present i could ever receive.

sometimes,
even the smallest things could bring a smile to my face.

frankly speaking,
im tired of being the one bringing smiles to other people's faces.
and yet,
i am never happy.

my happy moments never last.

i seek to find my happiness.
but it always seems so far.

ive already lost my physical pillar of strength.
it just crumbled.
and im losing my emotional pillar of strength.

happiness that comes from making people happy has lost its charm on me.
i want to be happy.

please just grant me this wish.

i really want to be happy.

2007-01-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

and so it goes...

19 years has passed...

onto a brand new phase of my life...

as a 20 year old...

yes.

its my birthday.

hope people remember my birthday.

Happy New Year!

2007-01-01T03:32:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year !!!

*party poppers* *balloons* *confetti* *whatever that u can think of*

well..
its the year 2007..
which means...

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING!!!
9 January

wahaha.
i expect presents.

well..
new year resolution...

successfully graduate

complete my driving

win alot of money during CNY and mahjong sessions

thats all i can think of now...
since there's no point for me to think so much..
entering NS le..
arrhh..
crap...

anyway...
a belated Merry Xmas too..
havent been able to log in or access internet properly
because our internet is made in taiwan...
stupid earthquake..

ahaha..

im tired.
zzzz..
bye.

2006-12-17T00:06:00.000+08:00

common tests are finally over.

time to chill.

papers were relatively ok.

still manageable i guess.

except for my afa(advanced financial accounting) paper..
i didnt manage to balance my cash flow.
worst thing is..
i did it correctly at first..
and i dont know why i go correct it...
grrrr

anyway..

got my 2 weeks planned out so far..

18Dec - settlers with lcor
19Dec - FP Project ; Not really planned yet..
20-22Dec - Out of Town. Gone fishing.
23 Dec - if no one jio me out, then i go BBDC
24-25Dec - Not planned
26-27Dec - if no one jio me out, then i go BBDC
28Dec - Celebrate anni with gf
29Dec - if no one jio me out, then i go BBDC
30Dec - if no one jio me out, then i go BBDC
31Dec - go countdown lor

ok.
i lied.
not planned at all.
haiz.

i miss you.
you know who you are.
i miss you.

a yandao me for you.
haha.

2006-12-10T23:29:00.000+08:00

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding

This is my last resort

Cut my life into pieces
I’ve reached my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding
Do you even care if I die bleeding?
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine

I never realized I was spread too thin
To live was too late
And I was empty within
Hungry!
Feeding on chaos
And living in sin
Downward spiral where do I begin?
It all started when I lost my mother
No love for myself
And no love for another.
Searching to find a love up on a higher level
Finding nothing but questions and devils

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Nothing's alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running outa crying
I’m crying
I'm crying
I'm crying
I'm crying

I can't go on living things this way

Cut my life into pieces
This is my last resort
Suffocation
No breathing
Don't give a fuck if I cut my arm, bleeding!
Would it be wrong?
Would it be right?
If I took my life tonight
Chances are that I might
Mutilation outta sight
And I’m contemplating suicide

Cuz I’m losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine
Losing my sight
Losing my mind
Wish somebody would tell me I’m fine
Nothing’s alright
Nothing is fine
I’m running and I’m crying

I can’t go on living this way
Can’t go on
Living thing this way
Nothing’s alright

2006-12-09T14:08:00.000+08:00

When we were young the future was so bright
The old neighborhood was so alive
And every kid on the whole damn street
Was gonna make it big and not be beat

Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn
The kids are grown up but their lives are worn
How can one little street
Swallow so many lives

[Chorus]
Chances thrown
Nothing's free
Longing for what used to be
Still it's hard
Hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

Jamie had a chance, well she really did
Instead she dropped out and had a couple of kids
Mark still lives at home cause he's got no job
He just plays guitar and smokes a lot of pot

Jay committed suicide
Brandon OD'd and died
What the hell is going on
The cruelest dream, reality

2006-12-04T23:29:00.000+08:00

2006-12-04T00:13:00.000+08:00

i just realised something.

i started reading bleach comic before it actually became famous.

and i didnt realise it.

a few years back,
i just happened to feel bored and bought 3 newly released comics at CC.

it happened to be Bleach 1 2 3

after that,
dont know why i stopped buying.
but,
eventually i forgot about it.

then the bleach craze came.
and the story goes on...

i was reminded about my comic when i happen to be browsing through
the net for bleach stuff
then it suddenly strike me that i read a book rather similar to
bleach story...

searched for the comics..
and it really is bleach.

gosh.

think im going to complete the collection of the entire series...

2006-12-02T01:07:00.000+08:00

dear readers,

i will be away over the weekends.

will be on a short trip to JB and back on sunday evening.

please miss me.

yes i said please miss me.

>.<

leave an offline message on msn, or just email me.
i have no auto-roam.

bye!

my unlucky day

2006-11-30T21:05:00.000+08:00

i realised my day would start off badly,
when i woke up on the wrong side of my bed.

morning was fine.
and i thought that maybe i was wrong(about a bad day).

had no lessons until 2pm today.
but i still left for school at around 1230pm.

reached school at about 1pm.
supposedly to do project.
but all my project mates were busy.
so the meeting was cancelled.
and i was all alone.

went for my lecture at 2pm.
sat alone.

lecture ended.
left school and crossed a bridge to get to my busstop.
but was called back to school to wait for someone.
headed to canteen 1.
found a spot, and sat down.

*splat*
i sat on a wet chair.
jeans were wet.
underwear was wet.
felt so uneasy.

went town after that.
no movies to watch.
so went shopping.
decided not to buy anything.
was sprayed some woman's perfume.
kinda dislike that smell on my shirt.
eventually,
i developed a headache(still affecting me as i type).
feeling giddy.
went home.
at the mrt station,
all except 1 of the machines were down.
had to queue for 5minutes just to get back my $1 deposit.

while walking home,
i tripped and fell.
my knees hurt like hell.
and my feet kinda hurts too.

now im home.
feeling hungry.
but theres nothing to eat.

there's still projects waiting for me to complete.

what a day.

2006-11-29T22:00:00.000+08:00

hello!

been busy with projects lately.

guess what,
i had my eyebrows trimmed for the first time today.
i cant really tell the difference,
since i dont notice my eyebrows much.

anyway,
havent really got anything worth blogging about.
unless you want to know the details of my work.
which i am lazy to type out.
HAHA.

okok.
if you have a topic that you wish for me to try to talk about.
tag me then.

other than that,
bye!

For All NP BA students

2006-11-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Especially AUDIT students...

SHOCKING!
OUR VERY OWN MR ALVIN QUEK!
SALUTE!

this is my story

2006-11-19T23:38:00.000+08:00

sorry available in chinese only. somehow, chinese words works better in writing my story.

Please Help

2006-11-19T00:10:00.000+08:00

I need help.
I need to understand myself better.

Click HERE

It shouldn't take for than 5 minutes of your time. Please!!
Thank you!!

2006-11-18T10:58:00.000+08:00

Korean Version

Chinese Version

2006-11-18T08:43:00.000+08:00

my ah boy is dead!

T_T

*sniff sniff*

ah boy is the one on the left. the other one is also dead.

haiz.

i miss my hammies...

2006-11-18T01:15:00.000+08:00

while reading violetgem's blog...
i came across this post:

eleven rules of being human

1. You will receive a body.
You may like it or hate it, but it will be yours for the entire period of this time around.

2. You will learn lessons.
You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called Life. Each day in this school you will have the opportunity to learn lessons. You may like the lessons or think them irrelevant and stupid.

3. There are no mistakes, only lessons.
Growth is a process of trial and error: Experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiment that ultimately "works."

4. A lesson is repeated until learned.
A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can then go on to the next lesson.

5. Learning lessons does not end.
There is no part of life that does not contain its lessons. If you are alive, there are lessons to be learned.

6. "There" is no better than "here."
When your "there" has become a "here," you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."

7. Others are merely mirrors of you.
You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects something you love or hate about yourself.

8. What you make of your life is up to you.
You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.

9. Your answers lie inside you.
The answers to Life's questions lie inside you. All you need to do is look, listen and trust.

10. You will forget all this.

11. You can remember it whenever your want.

interesting. hmm.

Jealousy: Love or Insecurity

2006-11-16T23:09:00.000+08:00

Jealousy is a sign of attachment and a form of love and wanting something that someone else has

Jealousy could be both Love and Insecurity at the same time

Insecurity can be split into 2 types.

1) Low self-esteem
2) Low trust

Jealousy is a sign of an insecure person that is afraid that the object of their concern(their partner in particular) does not value them as much as they value others. Jealousy is basically a sign of fear.
It is nice if your partner is a "little" jealous, but be careful that the jealousy does not turn into "possession". Unfortunately, alot of guys / girls misread their partner's jealousy for possession, and you know what happens. Make sure the jealousy is healthy. And NEVER ever make your partner jealous on purpose - that is a sign of disrespect, and shows you don't really care for that person(You would not hurt someone you love that way!) .

Feel free to comment

its a start

2006-11-16T21:25:00.000+08:00

show some support k?

its just a start.

still pretty amateur to it.

http://auctions.yahoo.com/sg/user/fishandducks

2006-11-16T19:02:00.000+08:00

Haiz
Just had my medical at CMPB today
But I still have to go for another medical on Wednesday
Because they want to test my asthma status or something

For those who are interested, here’s a preview of what’s gonna happen

1) Walk into the place
2) Go through security, and get a pass and a key to lock up your hp
3) Walk to cmpb building
4) Register at information counter
5) Go to photo booth
6) Go to next room, and register yourself for medical
7) Submit questionnaire and IC
8) Receive a file with a lot of documents
9) Go to designated counter (6 counters all together. There is no sequence. Random)
10) EYE: just do the routine eye check up (if u wear contacts, wear specs for that occasion)
11) EARS: you’ll be asked to enter a room which is extremely sound proof. Put on a headset, and listen for sounds. Respond with your hands on which side you’re hearing the sound from.
12) XRAY: just strip off your shirt and take the xray
13) BLOOD&URINE: they will test your blood type. Pee into a yellow yakult looking bottle, dip a strip of paper into it etc etc.
14) MOUTH: the dental routine, just check your teeth. Next is scan your jawbone or something.
15) Go into room 6.
16) Register at counter. Get a key to keep your belongings in a locker.
17) Strip down to your shorts only. Shoes have to be removed too. Put into locker.
18) Enter ECG room. Do some funny tests.
19) Wait
20) Enter a room to see the doctor.
21) Take off shorts, cough with hands over mouth. Put shorts back on.
22) Declare whatever sickness you have to the doctor.
23) Go outside and wait.
24) Take some documents and head on to the com lab.
25) Register at the com lab counter.
26) Enter room, and take the IQ, MATHS, PHYSICS etc. tests.
27) Wah-lah! You’re done.
28) Leave CMPB. Go collect your hp.
29) Go home

Yup~
That’s it.
Haiz.
Shouldn’t take more than 2hrs or so.

good bye.
im going to mull over some personal matter.

i need company.

2006-11-12T22:17:00.000+08:00

hello.

well.
im here to summarise my week.
Boring.

of course, at least i got to participate in my church's sports day with the BLC youths.
but, sadly, i only got to play 1 half of a soccer match(because i hurt my shin after colliding with someone else), and 1 half of a captain's ball match(cause i join in halfway).

besides that...
i can only say my week..
has been nothing but NOT enriching.

pratically boring and sad.

well...
saw this on my way back from dinner today:

this van collided with a transisland bus along adam road.
must have been speeding.

oh well.

good night people.

2006-11-11T00:14:00.000+08:00

I AM BORED

i desperately want to go out.

but no one date me out?!?!?!!!!

my girl's already got a date!
grrrrrrr!!!!!!!

im bored

im really bored

im really really bored

i dont even know what i am doing now

im so bored im just clicking away on my notebook...
but not opening any programs.

no one to talk to on msn

nothing to do besides homework.

games are getting abit boring.

argh.

FRUSTRATED!

this is me now

2006-10-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

2006-10-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

29 october 2006, sunday

sports day!
went over to andy's place after church today.
the plan, instead of watching movies,
we do some sports or watch dvds.
in short, save money and keep fit.

played an almost full 90minutes plus of soccer.
wow.
never felt so good yet tired at the same time before.
by the end of the game,
we were dead beat.
the sun was punishing.
phew.
had a little injury here and there.
i was rammed near my flag pole.
good thing it missed.
i cant remember the other injuries that occured during the game.
but i remember that my soccer ball was a little hard,
we played till our toes hurt.
ziming even had a BIG... and i really mean BIG...
PATCH of blister on the bottom of his foot.

the only injury that "clung onto" me...
would most probably be the swell on my left foot.
it hurts on every step that i walk.

played a little badminton after soccer.
i cant remember the last time i actually swung a badminton racket.
was a little off target in the beginning...
but i managed to pick it up.

it was fun yet enriching at the same time.
it also helps keep me prepared for NS.
LOL.

30 Oct 2006, Monday

went to school with a bandage foot.
applied TigerBalm's muscle relief and bandaged it before leaving for school.
had to leave home earlier,
since i would be walking slower than usual to reach the busstop.
at least i survived the day in school.
hopefully i can survive tomorrow.

hope that my foot recovers fast.
its rather inconvenient.
woots.

2006-10-28T00:56:00.000+08:00

hellO!

i just kinda celebrated my first halloween!!

had dinner at changing appetites with my dearest.
there was a halloween special.
the entire restaurant, including the staff were dressed for the occasion.

i ordered a halloween T-bone steak, she ordered a seafood pasta.
when i get the photos for the food, ill post it up.

my steak was fabulous.
words difficult to explain.
ill let the pictures do the talking as soon as i get them.

anyway...
went over to town...
shopped around...

ended up in Far East.
They were also in the Halloween mood...

saw a pumpkin head and we decided to take a photo each..

who cuter??

hehehehe...

happy 1 year dear!
=D

officially 365 days together!!
muacks!!!

2006-10-26T22:21:00.000+08:00

i wish i have a genie that would grant me 3 wishes

i would wish for happiness

then i would wish for happiness

and i would wish for happiness again.

my ibs tutor was right.
why bring a life into a world engulfed in hatred, anger, pain, confusion, material possessions etc.
forget it. i must be mad.

2006-10-26T21:00:00.000+08:00

a belated selamat hari raya and deepavali to those who celebrate them.

got so pissed while i was on the bus today.

was on bus 975.
the bus was packed, and i was standing at the steps of the front door.
the bus stopped at the bus stop opposite bukit timah shopping centre for people to alight.
there was this OLD LADY(OL) who boarded the bus along with other commuters.
i was carrying a bag weighing over 3kg(because of my laptop)... it was bulky and heavy already...
and this OL kept pushing me,
trying to get me to move in.
its not that i dont want to.
its just that i cant.
cause there isnt any space to let me move.
but this stupid OL keep pushing and saying excuse me..
im like, sorry lor you stupid OL ... there isnt any space for me to move... so stop shoving you PIG HEAD.
right.
of course i didnt say out loud.

but i admit i was rather hostile towards her when i replied her that i could not move since there isnt any space.
i gave the OL a brief staredown...
and with the bus driver's help,
we could move to the inside of the bus.
the OL dared not look at me during the entire bus trip.
stupid OL..

YOU STUPID COMMUTERS ARE TO BLAME ALSO.
MOVE IN YOU DAMN F*** HEADS.
STOP BEING SO SELFISH...
AND JUST MOVE IN...
WHERE'S YOUR CONSIDERATION???

argh.

i cant stand it.

why cant people just give up their seats for old people??
why?
selfish ass cracks.

2006-10-22T00:32:00.000+08:00

due to recent events,

ive made a rather irrational decision...
but hopefully a good one.

expect a new me.
ok..
not in terms of looks.
but character.
ill keep certain of my traits..
and change those "defective" ones.

i will cherish every moment i have in my life.

be strong i will
for everyone and myself

2006-10-22T00:12:00.000+08:00

2 years ago...
i had a friend.
a friend i had considered close.
a friend whom i hang out with almost every other day.

and its also this friend that showed me the wake up sign.
*smack*

its because of this friend,
that i have learnt to grow stronger.
its because of this friend,
that i grew confidence in myself.
its because of this friend,
i became more open-minded.

thank you natalie, my friend.

now as a friend,
i hope you would stay strong and cheerful as you always were.
tough as it may seem, but i believe in you.
im poor with words,
so all i can say is that,
if theres anything that i can do as a friend,
just let me know.
believe me,
me and those who cares for you would be there for you.

God bless.

2006-10-12T14:43:00.000+08:00

woots

i just found out

the premiere of SAW 3 is in 2 weeks time!

any other fans out there?

i know who is definitely not one.
haha.

vivo city is now open for business!
ive been there.
and jolly gosh.
the place is huge.

if u dont know how to get there..
take a train to harbourfront...
and u shd be able to walk over.
stupid.
haha.

2006-10-07T23:09:00.000+08:00

*curses* *swears*

TMD KNN CCB KNS NNB NLH ICUCICU

bloody hell.. the PSI index reach 150...

ccb.

for a person with asthmatic problem like me...

a 5minute walk from the bus stop home,
is like...
having to walk through thousands or millions of people smoking next to you..
and you're like dragging a heavy lung back home..

frankly speaking.
im having breathing difficulties already...

seriously.
no offence...

what the FUCK is the indonesian government doing about it?

NOTHING?

arrest those son a bitches for burning trees!

burn them on a stake!!

pluck out their finger nails forcefully one by one!!

hammer their legs!!!

ok..abit sadistic.
im just pissed.

dont be surprised if i carry an oxygen tank around with me everyday.
grrr....

2006-10-02T19:23:00.000+08:00

hey its me!
Ben, the weatherman (hmm kinda rhymes)!!!

Heres the weather report for today... and most likely the next few days...

I'll summarise it...

IT SUCKS!

due to assholes in indonesia(no offence intended) who loves burning trees
without considering the consequences...

the HAZE is back!

please try to stay indoors as much as possible.
parents please take your brats home as soon as school ends.
unless necessary, when you leave home, please do carry an oxygen tank.
if you like, you can carry a portable fan with you...
its for blowing all the haze towards people who smoke(again, no offence intended)...
please bring extra inhalers out for those who are asthmatic...
teachers, please keep PE lessons indoors.

eh-hem...

do expect rain in the morning on tuesday with temperatures of 25 low and 32 high.
isolated late morning and early afternoon showers with thunder on wednesday and thursday with temperatures between 24 and 32 degrees.

please do bring an umbrella with you.. and whatever you deem necessary to fight the haze.

thank you.

this is:
Ben, the weatherman, signing out~

*cough*

damn.. bloody haze..

2006-09-27T16:37:00.000+08:00

funny... i didnt know theres a limit to the number of emails you can send within 24hrs for hotmail.
after forwarding some crap mail... about 50... i wasnt allowed to send anymore emails.. and to do so, i have to sign up for hotmail plus...
weird...

ok...
hmm...

mom's home at last... after her 3weeks trip to canada/alaska...

me? been rotting... occasionally going church for stuff...

hmm...
just completed my NS pre-enlistment documentation...
bahh...
theres this medical section im supposed to fill in..
asking me if i smoke..
omg..
i used to smoke..
but if i put ex-smoker..
my mom would find out!
DIE!

*bish*

been ******* around recently..
but now that mom's back... no more *******.
beep.
dont think dirty you freak.

ok..
off to rotting land..

2006-09-21T12:02:00.000+08:00

whoever plans the time slots for every possible module's tutorial and lectures....
this is for you:

YOU BLOODY HELL SUCK

how the hell you plan the possible slots such that i have no choice but to plan an 8hour straight day on friday... while i have a 3hr break on thursday with only 2 lessons??!?!?!?!!!

you suck big time.
seriously.

take this: _|_ (\./) _|_

2006-09-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

lowest of my spirits now
friggin demoralised

dont wish to explain much,
just that i had alot of thoughts about myself and my life

in short,
im feeling very sad

went batam with my church friends ytd.
toured the island for the entire saturday.
never felt richer than before because i was holding
notes that have more than 1 zero on it.
ok.
although the currency is SGD1:RP5700,
it just feels different.
bought some stuff there.
hoping someone would appreciate it.
lunch there was terrible.
terrible because,
the portion of food they gave is so pathetic.
a table of 10, but the portion per dish is for 4.
oh well.
maybe indonesians dont eat much.

on the way back from batam to singapore,
was at the back of the cruise ship,
gazed up to the starry sky,
and saw a RED moon.
i could have easily mistaken it for mars if
it wasnt for the obvious shades on the moon itself.

was a rather great day for me.

memories are wonderful when they are like this...
but sometimes,
memories can only bring you hurt and pain..
they are more like nightmares.

out-

2006-09-08T17:34:00.000+08:00

emotional crisis.

2006-08-31T01:12:00.000+08:00

my sincere apologies to those who might find this entry offensive, crude, rude or whatever... its just coincidence if this entry relates to you or somehow.

funny how life can be isnt it?
one moment of gladness would turn to sorrow and pain in just a matter of
seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks, months, years.....
it just catches you completely off guard.

sometimes it feels as if our lifes,
are like a ~~ticking~~ remote timebomb...
at any time... without warning,
and we're ....
even if there was a warning,
it would be a long term one... just there to let you know a bomb exists.
sometimes, the most we can do is just delay it from exploding.

the cheapest advice i can give..

1) Live life to its fullest.. dont miss any opportunity to live it, but dont do anything that you would regret.
2) Give life to your fullest. this does not just apply to monetary contribution, but with action... sometimes its the little things we do that bring others happinest.
3) Learn to cherish and appreciate everything you have. Dont take things for granted.

come into this world crying, leave this world smiling.
dont let people forget the good things and remember the bad things you have done.

pissed

2006-08-23T04:22:00.000+08:00

here i am... in the middle of the fucking night...
instead of sleeping for an exam paper at 9am...
im sitting in front of my laptop trying to frustrate my:
anger, sadness, stress, confusion, pride..

Is pride really that important to a person?
is it so important, that it makes it so difficult to give in or apologise?
i know i dont have much pride.
i forgive easily. i apologise easily. i give in easily.

sometimes i feel like as if im a punching bag.
for people to frustrate their puny little anger problems on me.
even the smallest thing, lets say someone broke their pencil.
they would just frustrate it on me.

im not perfect.
nobody is.
but in your eyes,
i feel less than imperfect.
i feel worthless...
no, not priceless...
worthless.
i feel like trash.
i get so harshly beaten down by your words and actions.

you have the right to be angry,
and i dont?
am i not allowed my freedom of expression?
do i have to hold everything back?
even i am human.
accumulating everything inside of myself,
uncertain of when i might finnaly explode into my insanity.
driven to a mental hospital at such a young age.

why cant we all just put down our damn pride.

i just need you to be more sensitive and understanding towards me.
is that so hard to ask for?
maybe if you put down your pride,
it might be easier.

if not,
i could conclude that your way of showing love/concern,
is through harsh words that sometimes feel like abuse,
or through attitude that you give me.
i can try to live with that.
but i dont know how long i would live.

maybe you're right.
im just not your mr right.
im just a benchmark to your mr right.

my self-esteem is at its lowest.
i feel my guts eating itself up.
i totally just suck
i can never be the person i wish i am
i can be nobody
because i am a nobody.
because if i were, people would be reading this fucking blog of mine.

good night world.

i'll just fall into my eternal slumber.

2006-08-19T00:16:00.000+08:00

if u noticed
i uploaded 2 more videos..

1 is my amateur fireworks video...
2 is a rather stupid magician... just watched...
dont mind the magician video.. its abit laggy dunno why.

ok.. my first exam paper is about 8hrs46mins away..
will be MIA until 25Aug 4pm.

until then..
love you folksss!!

2006-08-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

sheesh.
what a long day i had.

watched

CLICK!!

its a very good movie!
packed with laughter and a good moral teaching..
i recommend it as a must watch.

went SOP afterwards..
it was the best time this week.
singing on top of my lungs..

yesterday,
was at marina watching

by France team.

too bad.
i didnt get a good view of it.
only managed to watch a small part of it.
my relatives were luckier.
they went over to my uncles office,
and they watched the entire fireworks..
in an air-conditioned room!
goodness.
i was perspiring like mad.

nvm.
im off to sleep.

and I DONT LIKE PEOPLE WHO THINKS I NEVER STUDY.
IF THATS THE WAY YOU THINK, FINE.
THEN IM BETTER OFF AS A ROAD SWEEPER THEN.
IVE HAD IT.

****

2006-08-05T17:10:00.000+08:00

spoiler

i had so much planned for you today..

ended up with nothing.

last minute throw me aside.

i made advance booking long ago!

and you forgot.

and i didnt dare to say no to you.

haiz.

wanted to go your place watch movies on my laptop.

then at night take you for dinner,

and then buy you a bouquet of flowers and

watch the fireworks at esplanade there.

so sweet and nice right?

haiz.

this was all meant to be a surprise.

but i give up.

since you pangseh me,

i find no point keeping the surprise any more.

and guess what.
when i was told of the fireworks festival,
it gave me an opportunity to surprise you and stuff.

now,
i've no more ideas/inspiration to think of any surprises.

im bored to my ass at home.
nobody to talk to.
nobody to interact with.
just left staring and the 4 walls in my room,
and the rubbish in it(including myself).

bah.

forget it.

2006-08-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

gosh
what a long day.

i got back home only 20 minutes ago.

had tax revision lecture and rfa lecture today.
had class work during rfa.
and i realised i forgot quite abit of my PFS.
time to buck up.

anyway,
after school headed to michelle's place for dinner.
her mom was cooking steamboat,
so she asked a few relatives to come join them.
it was also kinda like a welcome dinner for my aunt and family who came back from the states.

never knew that there was such a food as CheeseBalls.
they're like fish balls, but they have cheese fillings.
rather tasty.
felt weird initially, but i started to like it.

Q:"how do you tell if a cheese sausage is cooked?
A:"when it cums"

XD

anyway,
the adults started talking and talking and talking..
along with red wine and peanuts..
ultimate.
-___-"

and i was bored off my ass.
mich and her sis were out at church.
and i was much practically left alone.
alright.
there were kids.
but i felt they were rather irritating.
zzZzz.

blah blah blah blah blah.
hey is 12am!
gosh.

oh yah.
in case i forget,
if anybody i know from BA yr 3 reads this,
our prom night is coming.
i cant rmb the exact date,
but if ure interested,
sign up at canteen 1 from 2aug to 11aug.
there will be a registration surcharge of $40.
the tix are at $75, u pay the rest another time.

okok.
nights.
im beat.

2006-07-31T00:39:00.000+08:00

where in this island i am on can i actually scream and cry out all my sorrows pain and troubles?

i am really going to break down soon.

the world is so hard to please.

i cant please everybody.
i desperately want to.
but i just seem unable to do it.
i want to see people happy,
but all i seem to be able to do is the exact opposite.

i feel like such a failure sometimes.

the harder i try,
the harder i fall.

sometimes i wonder,
when i am down, who would actually be there for me besides God?

as much as i like to give the feeling of love(be it friendship, bgr or whatsoever),
i would also like to receive.

the world is a cruel place.
quit being so harsh on me.

forget it.
i guess i have not only learn how to pick myself up when i am down,
but i have to learn how to make a support to keep myself up.

i guess,
sometimes,
it would be happy when i see/make people happy.
even if they dont appreciate it,
its fine.

happy!!

2006-07-29T02:04:00.001+08:00

Happy 9 months darling!

this is the best day of our individual months!

anyway..
while doing nothing..
i decided to try playing FreeCell.
fine.
im slow and i admit i dont know how to play.
can?

play play try try..
and i FINALLY...
finally completed 1 game..
big deal hor?
well.. its the first time i completed k!!

download windows messenger live.
cool.
works like icq.
you can leave offline messages.
and the layout seems nicer..
more executive feel.
heehee.
now can bug people even if they offline..
ROARR!!

yawns..
im tired..
maybe i should go sleep..
otherwise i may end up having midnight snacks..
no good no good.

bye bye!

2006-07-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

done!
finally done preparing the "amazing race" for sunday's 5th week outing at sentosa.
made a trip down to sentosa to recce(pronounced as reck-ki).
saw a taiwanese family at the entrance.
they had some trouble... so i volunteered to help them abit.
talked with them for awhile till we parted ways.
haha!
i know the lcor people who read my blog are hoping to find clues and stuff..
well... BOO!!
try harder!
haha..
walked around sentosa, trying to find stuff that can be included into the "amazing race".
found it kinda relaxing to walk around alone. felt so free.
saw many things, people, girls(oops...)... and walked to places that i have yet to venture to.

oh yah. bought a new street soccer boots from queensway yesterday. $79.

okok.. i needa go do my work.
byebye~

2006-07-20T04:27:00.000+08:00

hi.

i'm still awake.

can't sleep.

i feel so dry..

maybe because i spent most of my time sobbing.

i miss you.

the pain im suffering.

where'd you go?

2006-07-19T23:29:00.000+08:00

where'd you go?
i really miss you so.
seems like its been forever,
since you've been "gone"...

I REALLY MISS YOU

fort minor - where'd you go

2006-07-19T00:22:00.000+08:00

(Chorus:)
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever
that you've been gone
Please
Come back home
(Intro:)
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever
that you've been gone
(Verse 1:)
She said somedays I feel like shit
Somedays I wanna quit
and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
Because your voice always helps to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say,
so I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
(Chorus)
(Verse 1:)
You know, the place where you used to live
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine
I plan to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you
I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
(Chorus)
(Verse 3:)
I want you to know it's a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debating
Tired of sitting and hating and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling so useless
It seems one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it

Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like it's been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please come back home[x5]

2006-07-17T23:29:00.000+08:00

-sigh-

nights like this have been pretty lonely for me

all i have for company is this screen im staring at;
homework;
occasional tv/games/anime;

i've seem to lost some "human touch"

when was the last time when i would spend most of my time
chatting away on the phone? or msn with people?

neglected is the word.
especially from someone special to me.

vcds/dvds/taiwan/korean everything..
they're stealing you away from me.

you've been so harsh on me.
so cold.
you're running so fast in front of me,
and each time i run faster after you,
you go even faster.
i cant seem to catch up.
i'm running out of breath.
help me please.

2006-07-16T22:25:00.000+08:00

just remembered something that happened while waiting for eric to choose and buy his slippers at RIPCURL.

daniel liked the ripcurl plastic bag alot.
and he was wondering if we could buy it.

heres an imaginary conversation:

: Hi, can i buy your plastic bag. i like it alot.
: Hey, you can have it free. No worries. *smile*
: ok. thanks. can i have 10 please.
: =__=!!

okok.
that was lame.
but it cracked us up.

roar~

2006-07-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

hey y'all.
havent blogged for quite some time.
been busy and all.

well.
the weeks have been rather tiring.
projects after projects.
assignments after assignents.
mini-tests after mini-tests.
gosh.

thank goodness for the GSS(Great Singapore Sale if some dumb dumbs dont know).
been immersing myself in the greatness of:
retail-theraphy.
ahhh..
the comfort and joy of shopping.
XD

bought quite a number of things during this sale.
lets see..
i bought 2 berms from IPZone
a polo-tee from IPZone
a PINK t-shirt from TOPMAN
a cap from RIPCURL
a pencil-case(big enough to put A4size paper inside) from RIPCURL
a sandal from IPZone
a shirt(the MONSTER 9" for those who have seen it) from NewUrbanMale

ok.
not very fabulous stuff.
but satisfying.

was wondering.
if i were to have $1000 to spend in a day..
where would i spend it.
SHOPPING... and eating.
hee~
of course i have to bring my gf along..
or i'll get the nagging and stuff..
woots~

zzZZzzZzz.
just started watching Full Metal Alchemist anime.
quite nice.

grrr.
my new pencil case has some smell on it...
its rather irritating..

OH!
i just remembered.
i had a hair cut at Jean Yip too.
=D
i had a tough time deciding where to have my hair cut.
then i had an impulse one day to cut it at JY.
well..
im satisfied with it.
i like my new hair style too.
think i'll cut the same style next time

okok..
photos right?
another time..
lazyy~

*snore*

ciao y'all~

a bad start

2006-06-28T03:00:00.000+08:00

its about 3am in the morning and im still wide awake.

all because of a quarrel...
on my 8month anniversary with my girlfriend.

about what?
i don't want to speak about it.

sometimes, i really wish i were dead.
especially now.
i just wish all these pain would stop.
tears just flow down my cheeks like tap water.

ive never been so hurt before in my life.
if only time would just pause for that very moment
where i can just have time for myself.

i have lost my own life.
not physically, but mentally and emotionally.

i spend a quarter day in school;
a quarter with my girlfriend;
a quarter with my family & friends;
a quarter eating, sleeping and others.

i have barely enough time for myself.

i just dont seem to get the understanding from the people around me
about the stress i am getting.

i may put on a brave front,
but inside im just a hurt and tired soul.

im so tired.
so very tired.
i wish i would fall asleep and never awake again from all these pain im feeling.

somebody please help me.
would you save me.
stop all these suffering.

GOD!! I MISS YOU!!!

UPDATE

2006-06-24T01:28:00.000+08:00

goodness.

its been almost 2 full months since i last blogged.
since so much has passed since then,
i shall only blog about recent events.

great.
where am i supposed to start now.

how about i back-track.

Friday 23rd June:

Thought of getting myself a simple MP3 player.
Joined the stupid queue at around 920am, because someone wanted to get the $1 MP3 bargain.
Guess what?
We didn't get it!!!
that doesnt really matter to me.
what made me rather unhappy is that,
we joined the queue for nothing.
we had to endure the hot weather, while others were standing near the warehouse(aircon).
STUPID CREATIVE STAFF.
DONT KNOW HOW TO TELL US DONT NEED QUEUE IS IT??
*grumbles*

anyway,
got the same MP3 as my dear baby:

256mb(I dont think i need that much)
Built-in FM
Drag-and-Drop

oh yah, ours are in lime green.
I dont really ask for much, especially since this is my first MP3 player and the price is only $59.
woots.

anyway,
went over to baby's place to rush my MA project.
gosh.
last minute work.
roar~

15-18th June:
Lutheran Church of Singapore combined retreat at

Riveria Bay Resort,Malacca.
goodness.
i've got loads of pictures to post.
i think i'll just let some of the pictures do the talking.

one hell of a hard sleeper

some portugese-malay's iguana

had one of our dinner's here (Mahkota)

another dinner here. ok cause the hotel food sucks

some boring discussion session

GTA: San Andreas time

zzzZZzz

ZZZZzzZZZZZzZZZZZzzZZ

humongous Bananas

SOON KUAY!!

ok. its actually a washed ashore jellyfish

the beach where we found soon kuay

looks are deceiving..go imagine...

Babies!!

ok. these pictures arent going to fully tell what i did or what happened there. who cares right?

okok. i need to go get my sleep.
need to finish up on my project. zzzz.
nights world.

stop

2006-05-28T00:04:00.000+08:00

stop procrastinating ben!!

study!!!

i am so not ready for TAX2 & FMS papers!!!

AHHHH!!!

STUDY....

Stop procrastinating...

enough talk.

oh... happy 7months baby!

=)
wont be meetin you this week... gotta study... zzZZzz

2006-05-25T23:34:00.000+08:00

i was just reminded that i have almost 1 week left before my common tests.
freak.
i am so not ready.

anyway,

holland V friends..
wonder if you guys are reading this..
be reminded of ESSENTIAL@HOLLANDV ...
check your email for details.
i took alot of effort in doing it, so dont disappoint me.

i did this just now.. nothing to do.. my current wallpaper..
pretty nice i think..

2006-04-22T15:11:00.000+08:00

why cant my life just be normal.

i cant take this shit no more.

the pressure is driving me nuts.

i am no longer who i am.

i dont even know who i am.

i've had enough.

i wish i could just wash it off my hands,

but the fact is that i cant.

when would it all come to a stop.

stop it all.
someone.
please.
let it all STOP.

updateeeee

2006-04-04T22:34:00.000+08:00

hello.

a new month!

3 weeks left for my attachment.
hmm.
suddenly feeling a little bu she de.
because i really quite like my colleagues.
they are really an interesting bunch of people.
and its rather enjoyable to work with them.
anyway,
today we had lunch at Padang Restaurant(Singapore Recreation Club).
dim sum lunch to welcome a new "permanent" staff into the company.
*burp*
damn full at the end of lunch.
when everyone was back at the office..
they looked damn shag.
eat full full go sleep sleep.

anyway..
went shopping on sunday.
bought 2 pairs of levis..
total cost: $50

$50

yes.
thats right 50 bucks only.
haha.
orchard levi's store(takashimaya) is having a renovation sale..
up to 70% discount.
got a 902 and a 907..

anyway...
i got my pay at last..
$487++

woots.
not much.

YAWNS

i want to go sleep.
tomorrow needa work..
bye world.

MOS

2006-03-25T04:19:00.000+08:00

i just came home.
from Ministry of Sound...

courtesy of Ministry of Sound Singapore

MOS in short.

my first time at MOS.
and a long time since i clubbed.

met up with some of my secondary school friends.
the family.
gareth,charles,abbas,shidah,huihua,christie and grace.
yup.
the 8 of us.

well..
i can say MOS..
has done a pretty good job in leaving a rather good impression.
too bad i dont get to visit the VIP section(heard the place is entirely white)..

the only con to me..
is the retro section.
goodness.
it is really OLD SCHOOL.
so many foreigners..
and aunties and uncles..
it somehow brings back certain images in my mind..
Foreign sailors..
and stuff..

anyway..
we chose to stay at smoove.
thats where all the RnB,Top40 hits etc.
thats where we danced..grinded..and avoided assholes for the whole night.
the 4 guys were trying to protect the girls as much as we could..

haha.
the only thing i remember is this guy..
damn extra.
the 8 of us dancing together and he suddenly join in..
trying to get fresh with our sisters.
i saw the guy's hand trying to get fresh with one of the sisters.
he didnt succeed.
me and gareth intervened.
and he left eventually..

i cant believe there are still such people trying to get cheap thrills.
-_____-

alright.
my legs are really sore now.
but it was fun to hang around with my friends after so long.

cheer up shidah.
everything will turn out better.

darling.
im sorry.
i miss you very much..
cant wait to see you again
i love you.

irony against irony

2006-03-24T08:31:00.000+08:00

hmm.
got my exam results today.
wanna see?
hmm.
kinda embarassing results.

see!
GOT F!!

F IS FOR FANTASTIC!!!

-____-

who am i lying to.

anyway..
wanna know whats the irony about??
hahaha.

im on attachment now right?
in an audit firm right?
see see?
sensed it??

stupid thing is...
i think the theory for audit is redundant.
i mean..
i learnt much more from this attachment than i have from the notes.
retarded.
-___-

bah~~

I GOT FANTASTIC ON MY RESULTS SLIP..
DO YOU?

spiders are crawling all over my webpage

2006-03-21T09:01:00.000+08:00

omg.
there are cobwebs all over my blog.

yes.
i have been mia for a long time.

basically have been rather busy.

work work work.

yes work... not studies.

woots.

i'm now on attachment at a audit firm, J.Tan&Co.
its at Peninsular Plaza(near City Hall MRT).
today is mine 12th day at work(i work mon-fri).

zzZZzz.

thanks to this attachment.
i finally understand what i really want when i go out to work.

i cant just sit in front of a pc whole day,
sorting through papers..
staring at numbers..

NO!!

i dont want.

with a personality and character of mine..
its better if i find a job where i can walk around.
hey.
dont come up with corny jobs for me.
yah yah.
road sweeper.
-____-

i want to work in the hotel industry.

damn.
i regret taking this accounting diploma.

oh well.
there are its benefits though.

now got IR..
i think i must work hard to get a hotel/tourism industry related diploma/degree..
ASAP.

XD

okok.
slacked enough.
back to work.

dtxmania

2006-02-17T11:20:00.000+08:00

hmm.
exams approaching.
will be unable for the next two weeks.

anyway.
i've been playing DTXManiaGR...
its some drum game..
those that you see at the arcade..
only difference is that you play it with your keyboard.

yup.
i've been ramming my keypads...
and finally..
i have mastered one song...

yup.
green day's boulevard of broken dreams.
Full combo!!
woots.

okok.
enough playing.
off to the ~~books~~ notes...

overcomed

2006-02-09T15:56:00.000+08:00

recently,
life has been quite a bore.

i mean...
its like i haven't have much activity in life.

life has been revolving around waiting...
waiting...
and more waiting...

in another 3 weeks my exams start.
i'm not even mentally prepared.
lest to say,
i'm not even prepared for any of my papers.

besides that...
i haven't spent much quality time with my gf.
furthermore,
even if we do...
she's always with her friends..
and i can't seem to join in the conversations.

oh well.

chinese new year.
lost quite a lot of money.
haha.
no luck playing cards this year.
its been the same for the past few years.
hmm.
when will my luck be back?

boredom.

currently wasting time.
helping my gf with her blaw project.
supposed to spend quality time with her now.
but now..
forget it.
i give up.

status: worried sick

2006-01-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!

well.
i'm not that happy now.
not that i'm sad or what.
i'm just very worried.

and i am really worried sick.

she's out working tonight.
just a temp server at kbox(chinatown).
she's just replacing her friend tonight.

argh.

i am so worried.

please be safe.

please take care.

please keep all those baddies away..

happy cny to everyone again.

rufffff !!!!

2006-01-27T00:42:00.000+08:00

Its the year of the Dog this CNY!!
and i want a dog!!

okok..
not really because of CNY..
i've been wanting a dog.
but my mom's not a big fan of them.
-___-"

i want this!!

a jack russel!!!
ain't they just cute?

or..

bull terrier!
i just find them..
i just like this breed.

or..

Schnauzer!!
i just can't get enough of them!
they just love to tilt their head,
and that makes them so adorable!

ok.
i sound a little gay back there.
come on.
don't tell me you don't find them cute.
=)

2006-01-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

*grumbles*

playful me.
play with my notebook's adapter with my leg until the wire came loose.
and my notebook just shut down like that.

*grumbles*

and i lost whatever i was doing just now.

argh.

anyway..
i just realised its been 27 days into this new year,
and i haven't made any new year resolutions.
hmm..
lets see...

Be a good Christian

Be a good son

Be a good boyfriend

Be a good friend

Be richer(hey! who said this can't be a resolution????)

.....

alright alright.

shan't bore you with this stuff.

CNY's coming!!!
Whoopee!!!
this means alot to me!!

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
*sniffs*
can't seem to smell CASH yet...

*grumbles*

show me the money!!!

oh!

i haven't introduced myself.

I'm Ben!
I just turned 19 on 9 January.
I have a wonderful family and a great girlfriend;
Currently a Accounting student at Ngee Ann Polytechnic (oh yah! open house 2 Feb....).
Planning to go into the modelling world(no. i am not a hunk... hubba hubba~).

now now.
did i miss anything?

argh.
i've still got Audit tutorial tomorrow.

*grumbles*

time to drag my sleepy ass into bed...

good nights.

2006-01-24T23:53:00.000+08:00

My fists have shattered men's dreams, destroyed families and crushed hopes.
But when I open these hands, i can hold my wife, make my children laugh and even aid others.

The path that we take is not right, its simply the path that we choose